um ... whatup? as you may have noticed, i've gone into one of my news posting slumps. it's not that i don't love you, it's just that i really don't care to get over my predilection for procrastination long enough to keep you informed.

i have been writing it all down for my own benefaction (or do i mean benediction?), of course, but it never gets past my eyes. so you've missed out completely on either the mundane goings on of my life or, if you keep up with me regularly through other means, the trite commentary and rambling story-lines i add to the retelling. sorry.

in summary of the past however long it's been, i can say i'm pretty fucking happy. which is due, of course, mostly to that special someone in my life. begins with a C. ends with an E. some vowels and consonants in between. yeah, her. she's amazing. i really do feel more in love with her pretty much every day. i find her more beautiful, more interesting, more fun to be with, more, um, atomic hot all the time. which is surprising since i was pretty crazy about her to begin with.

now, though, i'm finding huge pleasure in doing things like bring her food for dinner when she's on call at the hospital and spending the evening watching bad TV while she explains heart problems to me and talks to nurses on the phone about whom to give what medications. it just feels right to be with her, unlike whatever i was doing before. she makes me say, "oh! so this is love. neat." and i think she pretty much feels the same way. the other day she even told me i "soothe her soul." you gotta love being the guy who makes a girl say something like that. funny thing is, she's the one who let me be a guy like that. like i've said before, she's helped me to be more me.

of course, it's not all about Corinne. i've already learned that lesson once or twice. there are other things that occupy my time and the space between my ears.

work's good. i'm finding ways to make challenges for myself when really meaty ones don't already exist. it's kept me surprisingly happy and i'm finding some sense of pride in my work. yeah, i took in a couple interviews and thought about moving on but i really like the company and see a lot of potential in the future, albeit the indefinite, hazy, and perhaps far off future. i'm making work work for me.

plus, it's baseball season and finally sunny and warm. it's hard to feel gloomy about anything with those kind of conditions around. sure, the slumping Giants make me scowl for brief moments when they leave pretty much the entire team on base and end up losing an entire series to the lowly, although doing quite well, Montreal Expos. but, then again, it's only May and they still have one of the best records in baseball. and if i can drive to work with the windows down, the sun roof wide open, and NPR blasting on the radio (ok, i'm a geek), all dark clouds pass quickly.

the warm weather also has me thinking of something that may be surprising to some of you: plants. greenery. leafy things that need to be watered. i suddenly decided my home needed some. so, now, instead of just the perennially dying Mr. Plant, i have three new additions to the house. they've made quite a difference already and sparked a bevy of other changes that have definitely spruced the place up. which has me wondering, with me and my girl's impending cohabitation, why i always get my apartment into the most ideal and livable space just before i leave it.

in any case, i'm doing just fine. Friday, we're seeing Chekhov's The Three Sister's, this weekend i'm flying home to set up my mom's computer and spend some quality time with the folks, there's a baseball game in my near future, the sun is definitely out, i'm hard pressed to find a cloud in the sky, and i even think i hear a bird chirping. sweet!